STUPIDEST THING

You have to be content with a dream that’s close. If you chase after one that’s far away, your heart will hurt and your insides will burn. A futile passion only leaves heartache. That’s why life’s stupidest thing is a one-sided love. But the reason that stupid one-sided love is worth trying is… that passion can sometimes make miracles happen… sometimes go the long way around to help you fulfill a dream… and even if it doesn’t allow you to realize that dream, it allows you to linger near it and find happiness.- TW

HELP!

Sometimes I wish I had an easy answer for why I'm depressed. That my father beat me or I was sexually abused. But my problems are less dramatic than that. Like My friends sometimes look at me like I'm from another planet or I'm obsessed with a boy who happens to be going out with my best friend. So, is there any one thing that made me want to jump off a bridge?
Maybe I'm not explaining right how serious this is. It feels like everything is just building up, and everyone else, they just seem to handle everything. You know like.. But not me. You know?
I'm scared.
I can't go back out there, I don't know what. I don't know how
I just need some help, I just need you (everyone) to help me.

IKFS.

The Chocolate Chance

Dikasih pinjam buku sama adek sepupu. Judulnya 'The Chocolate Chance' karangan Yoana Dianika. Kayaknya sih bagus, banyak soal coklat-coklat gitu (baru ini nemu buku bisa bikin gendut). Tapi belum baca sampai abis, baru prolog hihi. Tapi baru segitu aja udah nemu banyak kata-kata keren (galau). Kayak:

Aku membencimu bukan tanpa alasan. Kamu membuatku lemah, membuatku tidak bisa tidur, mengacaukan duniaku, mengacaukan hatiku-mutlak membuatku tidak berdaya- Orvala T.

Recalling days of sadness, memories haunt me. Recalling days of happiness, I haunt my memories- Robert Brault

The difference between false memories and true ones is the same as for jewels: it is always the false ones that look the most real, the most brilliant- Salvador Dali

Affair itu seperti drug-coba-coba akhirnya menjadi terbiasa- Orvala T.

Masa lalu yang hanya ada satu itu lewbih baik segera kukubur supaya tidak menjadi hantu- Orvala T.

Ternyata makna lain dari benci adalah masih ada perhatian--karena dengan membenci aku mencoba mencari sisi baik dari hal yang kubenci- Orvala T.

Masih banyak sih, tapi udah jam 1 nih, musti tidur banget ini, ntar subuh masak buat sahur. Eh, lusa lebaran loh. Selamat lebaran! Keep away from kastengel yaa

Hidup, Sulit ya?

Kita hanya perlu menempatkan perasaan pada tempatnya. Takut, malu, benci, bersalah, senang, sedih, suka, cinta. Letakkan semua pada tepatnya harus merasa. Sulit, iya. Tapi berusaha, paling tidak kita selangkah mendekati sempurna.

Common sense (JPTV)

Good things its come to those way. Make sure you wait, be patient, have good manners. You don't wanna be a bitch, right? You don't wanna be walk over or push over whatever you call it. You gotta know the limits know the boundaries its common sense.

Sacrafice

People hear the word sacrafice and they become afraid that something will be taken away from them or they have to give up something they can't live without. Sacrafice to them mean lost in the world who's telling us we can have it all. But I believe true sacrafice is a victory, because it request our free wild, to give up something or someone you love for something or someone you love more than yourself. I won't lie to you, its a gamble. Sacrafice won't take away the pain of lost, but it wins the batle of bitterness, the true value on our lives.- priest Steven.

Semoga Tidak Lelah

Awalnya aku suka kamu karena kamu pintar, menurutku. Tapi lama, aku mengenalmu sebatas yang aku tahu dan aku lihat bodohmu, aku lihat kurang ajarmu, aku lihat jorokmu, aku lihat jelekmu, aku lihat kikukmu. Aku lihat kamu. Dan aku tetap suka, dengan kadar yang sama seperti awalnya. Mengapa kadarnya sama?  Karena ku batasi itu. Kenapa ku batasi? Karena ku sadari kau harus hanya teman bagiku. Kenapa harus? Karena aku merasa kau menganggapku begitu. 

Semua hanya bergantung dari apa yang aku rasa, kenapa? Karena kebetulan itu tidak ada, tapi aku tetap percaya, untuk itu tidak berusaha membuat keadaan menjadi kebetulan yang manis, untuk kita bicarakan apa yang aku rasa dan mungkin kamu rasa. 

Jadi, ini alasanku, aku mohon maaf atas sikapku dan egois rasa ini. Semoga kau tidak lelah padaku.